I laugh when I think about my history with schoolwork. Though I was a decent student, I was never keen on homework. Instead, I would write all sorts of fictional stories and journal entries (still have many of them). Literally, I would avoid homework to write.
Things haven’t changed much. Now I avoid work to write. Well, let me be clear, I don’t skip work; I just have a hard time with the work that I bring home from the office. I tend to write and avoid the work that helps support me as a writer.
I’m sure I’m not alone.
But there are times when I don’t want to write, because I feel guilty about writing. It brings me such joy (insert scolding teacher image). So I probably shouldn’t be doing it (insert angel on my shoulder). Hmmm.
I recently spoke with a fellow writer who also shared her concerns around spending her limited free time “luxuriating” in writing. The struggle of doing more of other activities, attending to more chores, or doing something that others find “a better use of her time.” She was recently told that because her writing isn’t being compensated then it isn’t really a good investment. That’s a shame.
But I have to admit, every single one of those thoughts (and statements) have also occurred to me. Thankfully, I have a family that totally supports my writing, even if it’s just for fun. I’m the only one standing in my way. There is some guilt associated with giving up things that you can see immediate progress on for something that is a bit of a career gamble—but always brings you joy.
Well, phooey. I’m going to write even if it’s wrong or “write.” What about you?